reevaluating

The question most hate to hear...or the question that seems pointless to ask someone at a young age. "Where do you see yourself in five years?" WHO THE FUCK KNOWS! I mean for real, our life isnt set out in stone, theres not a map for us that tells us where to go, or bread crumbs for us to follow. So how are we supposed to have an answer for that pointless question. Life is full of twists and turns..well maybe I shouldn't surmise that ...my life is full of twists and turns..you may have the bread crumb trail to follow..how am i to know. You can ask me where do I see myself tomorrow..one would think I should say at class, or work, but how can one be sure thats where they see their self. Personally I dont see myself in school or work, only for the sole reason is I hate both those places. So why would I see myself in places I dread. Besides, something could come up tomorrow. I could become ill, or possibly die, so how can I see myself somewhere, when nothing is set in stone.

I think the best possible solution to help guide the path to your future is to really sit down and evaluate yourself at where you are RIGHT NOW in your life. Not tomorrow, now. Look at the person you are and the person you want to be, are they related, do you feel that you are learning to become that person? Are you content with your decisions that you have made in your past? Ask your self questions like that, about stuff you have already done, or have already started to implement in your life already. Not what you want to implement, or what you plan on doing tomorrow. Most importantly evaulate yourself, your feelings, how you have been feeling, how other people in your life view you. Think of things that you find odd that people may have said to you, or "jokingly" said to you...remember subliminal messaging. Having someone think something that hinders their life, their thoughts and feelings, that effects them negatively isnt good..especially if it its something you are already doing or saying that is making this person worry and say things that make them blame their self. Thats the last thing I want, is for someone to think they are one of my worst nightmares, that they are blaming their self for something im doing to myself, or in my daily routine.

I think its time for me to reevaluate myself...and I mean really evaluate myself. Not the quick scan like the option you have for a virus scan on your computer..a very through analysis of everything in my life up to Now. Its not a fun process, but it can be helpful and rewarding if done the right way...idk thats just my thoughts though. What do I know..."im just a poor boy nobody loves me" lol. Alright..i need to start thinking...maybe you should too. Are you being the person, friend, partner, husband, wife, mother, daughter, son, father, etc you want and should be?

Peace